The beginning of something new

Resolutions or I'd rather say list of things that will be my focus on 2014 -I'm not finding any solutions but rather just searching for my happiness, are:

•  saving for a specific destination rather than dreaming for an RTW trip which is a bit impossible for me at the moment. I have chosen a certain country that I really really really desperately wanted to go and I will focus to prepare my trip to go there (note: alone). This doesn't mean I'm throwing away the dream, but it's more about trying to make it real in a small measurable portion and I know in my heart it will take me further.
• say NO when I want to say NO. This one is not going to be easy for me. I really need to turn away from the guilty feeling of making other people unhappy
• spend more time blogging! I really need this one. Rather than being a sad sack that cries about the unfairness of this world, I wanted to learn how to write things that interest me the most. I always love to travel because I like to see how people live their life's, so I wanted to captured that and share the passion with everyone else.
• learn and learn and learn so much more in taking better photograph. Travel, photo, and coffee are three of the world's pleasure!
• more doodle-ing. I always make pictures in my mind that I would like to make it into doodles but often it's just gone away. So now I carry a little green doodle book so I can captured moments worth doodling hahaha...

That's all I always think of. Will do better this year!
Hope you have a very fun-tastic year ahead :)

A story about life

Found a movie by the recommendation of my friend R, the kind of movie I like. Judging by it's cover, it's so much like the Love Actually cover, and that is true because the director is the same. It's been a long time people made movies like this, so I'm so eager to see it.

The story is about some English seniors that came to India with different expectation, but lives in the same roof of Marigold Hotel they reserved from a web. It relates to real life by telling the story that not everything will worked out as you've planned. And sometimes, it's not always sweet at what people think is the end, because quoting from the narator, "Everything will be alright in the end so if it is not alright it is not the end." HAHAHA... it's true! 

Observing from the movie, I guess that most of us are trapped in someway or another of the life that we done really want to live in, but too afraid to take the other way. That is what I related the most. And I think most of us feel the same. I can count with my hand of how much people say the are happy at where they are right now. And like the character of Douglas, people are caged by their own will, because they are mostly good people that won't hurt somebody else, and having to spend 30 years of his life living unhappy. Then there's Graham, who is caged by his own thought that he made the man that he love suffered. But the good thing about the story of this movie is that they still have the time to change things.

After watching it, I can't leave the thought that I'm one of those people who spent my life (specially the last 4 years) living the life that I don't want to. And yes, I'm also trapped by my own thoughts. I knew it all the way but always got scare to change things. So I'm glad watching this movie because it gives me a little encouragement I got so little from people around me. I've made the plan that I think would change my life. It would took me about two years to do that. I know I'm a slow runner, but I usually will get ti where I'm heading. So I'll just be positive about things and carry on!

Do you like movies about live? Have you seen it? What do you think?

Changes...

December has come... the last month of 2012... honestly, I'm nervous. Lot's of things are about to change in 2013. Here's a little reading about that topic:

When winter arrives, the trees must sigh in sadness as they see their leaves falling.

They say: ‘We will never be like we were before.’
Of course.

Or still, what is the meaning of renewing oneself? The next leaves will have their own nature, they pertain to a new summer that approaches and which will never be like the one that passed.
Living means changing – and the seasons repeat these lessons to us every year.

Changing means going through a period of depression: we still don’t know the new and we have to forget everything we used to know.

But if we are a little patient, spring ends up arriving and we forget the winter of our hopelessness.

Change and renewal are the laws of life.
It is best to get used to them and not suffer about things that only exist to bring us joy.

taken from paulocoelhoblog