Goodbye 2013

 

2013, started as an hopeful year but turned out so badly that I glad it's over. A series of unfortunate events come and go. Bad things started in the very beginning of this year and left some pretty bad scars. I move back to my hometown just before the new year of 2013 and ended up in a job which I don't like but pretty much was the choice I have at that time. After just about 2 weeks at my new home, on a rainy Sunday afternoon, the ceiling in my bedroom felt down and it made a very bad mess and flood in to my house. The whole house was wet and dirty and we had to stay in our nice neighbor house for a couple of days.

Then just about a month after moving, I became so stressful in my job, I felt like I'm such a failure and the pressure was to hard for me to handle. It was every morning I have the desire to quit my job because I felt there is no point anymore. But after lots and lots of thinking, I really needed the payment (yes I admitted I work there for the money ONLY) because I was saving for my RTW trip. I then made a plan to save for about 2 years than after that I was planning to quit for good. That thought was the only thing that keep me waking up every morning to go to that horrible place and do the things I hated the most.

The very sad thing about 2013 was when I turned 30. Yep... I'm now officially a thirty something girl... it's bad that my twenties had gone, but it means I'm in the beginning of thirty something :) The thing that made me sad was because I didn't finished my 30B30 list :( I really tried to finished it, but "the moving" thing did took so much time, energy, and mind. 

Everything was quite alright and I did got a beautiful scar, it was a tattoo that I made. My first one and I'm so happy with it. Than that very bad accident happened. I still can remembered it so well. I was on the 24th of July -my husband's birthday. He was out of town the day before and was going home that night. I wanted to make a surprise by getting him a birthday cake. And for a reason I couldn't understand, I chose a bakery that was near my old high school. Logically, there was a bakery near my office and it was on the way home and tasted batter, but I don't know why I turn around and went the other way to buy the cake. On the way to the bakery, in a flash of second, without realizing what happened, I felt from my motorcycle. When I knew what happened, I was already sitting on the road and my mouth was bleeding. I stumble over on a road that was under-construction but was not being cleaned properly (and there was no sign). People said that I was the fifth person to fall that day. The scar did heal, but I had broke two of my upper front teeth. It took a month to recovered and I had to use a fake teeth, and from then on, I could not bite no more :( The accident was a split of second but the damage was permanent...

Than things got worst at September. My father got really sick. He went in and out of the hospital about three times in two months and still needs home care. Since September, I had to move back in my parents house because I'm the only child and my parents needs me.

Well, things didn't get any better at my work, but I felt there's no other option now because I needed to earn so much for the medication, so quitting my job was not an option. I'm now in the zone of feeling stuck and was a bit desperate. I bury my dream away, I live a life I don't wanted, and I have to live by other people's expectation. It made me feel so hopeless and no matter how much motivation I read, I still haven't find a way out. I really acted as a victim and it was a bad thing. But at this time of my life I really don't know what and how to get out of this mess.

But hey, it's now 2014... the good thing about new year is we have a second chance. I really hoped I could closed the doors I wanted to closed and opened new ones that needed to be opened. I needed a lot of changes. It's new year now, so it's a new hope! Happy new hope everyone :)

30 it is!

The end of my 30 BEFORE 30 journey! Can't believe that I have made a very long project :) Two years! I haven't accomplished everything on my list, but yet I still feel so very happy because I have write off most of the challenging things. I have made my first tattoo, which mean I can do another one (yay!) and I did take my mum on a mother and daughter holiday :)

Well, the next posts will be the post about what I did that I haven't published yet.

So here comes a new decade for me :) I know it will be great!

Quote of the month

Oh dear, it's May already, just one and a half months to my 30B30 due date and still lots to do! What happened to my life since last December was really out of my plans and had changed my life so much. That's why I didn't post much like I used too (and it's a bad thing). I was drowned so much in my problems, because trouble is like an unwanted friend that accompany me through the days. I got stressed-out and I guess it's so near to getting depressed. I know in my heart I want to quit this unhealthy lifestyle I'm going through right now (I'm working 12-14 hours everyday, not that I got more on my salary, and sometimes on Saturdays and Sundays too), but the logic part of me made me stay because I have bigger goals than that. So here I am... Losing almost 5 of my precious months of my 20s! But I'm not quitting my 30B30 list, I'm still trying to accomplish it. I've even done some of the list but haven't made a post and I have plans for the rest. 46 days to go =) it's a bit of a wake-up call! I got to make these last days count. Here we go, let's start from this:

May 2013 Quote - anonymous

Inked

Finally!!! Number one on my 30 Before 30 list, getting a tattoo is DONE!

Something I wanted from a long time ago. I remembered, since I was about 14 I wanted to have a tattoo. I always like to make those temporary ones. This time, it is real and permanent. The letter "L" is inked!

Being inked

The tattoo artist

My process of getting a tattoo was not an easy one. I was introduced to the tattoo artist by my co-worker. His name is Andre. The tattoo artist wanted me to have a clean and healthy tattoo, and I surely agreed with that. So he asked me to do some blood test (which were more expensive than the tattoo itself!). Because it was my first tattoo (not my last, hopefully...), I did all the blood test he recommended. A HIV-test was needed. It took 3 days for the result. It was negative, well, it was supposed to be because the fact that my life was far from crazy things (before 2011) and I even considered boring hahaha... I had the tattoo at my house! Yes, the tattoo artist was so kind he would likely go to our house with his lots and lots of equipment. It took 15 minutes to prepare and only about 10 minutes to make my letter "L" tattoo. And yes it hurt, it's a tattoo after all, but it's so bearable! So here I'm, inked with the letter "L". I love it so much!

The Letter is L

Tomorrow. Wednesday. 6 P.M. My house. The letter is L.

I have decided, I'm gonna inked a letter "L" on my wrist like the picture above (I got from the Internet). I first thought about the idea in the bathroom when I saw my letter "L" pendant. "L" represents my name Liesha, and not only that, I remembered that my lovely grandma's signature is an "L" Latin alphabet. I admire her so much. She's a very strong intelligent woman. She reads lots and lots of books, she owns a bookstore, her favorite author was Pearl S. Buck, and she loves to grow orchids. She have lived in the difficult times and yet have made an success by her own. Had traveled to Australia by herself at the time when traveling was not easy. So for every reasons, I want to put that spirit into something permanent. And L also stands for LIVE LIFE, LOVE, and LAUGH, all that make life worth living for.

So grandma, this is for you :)

Friends: the side effect

Watching Friends in a not-so-orderly sequences makes me wanna do the TV Show in the right order. So it goes to my 30B30 list. Recently, I've just had the time to start watching it again, since the last time was unsuccessful. I've just finished the whole season one when I started to realize the side effects of watching Friends. Since 2008, I have been living on my own, don't get me wrong, I loved it. But after being put to work in a remote place which is far from any of my friends at 2009, I'm completely ON MY OWN. So watching those six best friends, always seeing each other, taking care of each other or even just joking around, gives me that very bad side effects: I missed my friends! ='(  I really miss having a small gank like that, I used to have one at college, but now, I don't even have a friend to go with after work. It is so depressing. I was okay being alone at all times, but being alone + watching Friends = not okay!

Look how cuddlely they are... I want a gank like this!

So, I still have 9 seasons to go. I still wanna finish the legendary TV show in a sequences. Only God knows how long I could take the side effects. Does anybody have (and still) have a gank like this and still manage the work life these days? Please let me know how?

Fresh start in October

October is already here! OMG! I usually don't really care about this kinda stuff, but now I care so much because of this three reasons:

1. My 30B30 is still a long list to finish to goand time is running against me!
2. I'm gonna be 30 next year! The worst part is that I'm not even close to the image I made for myself as a thirty something woman (not girl again)
3. I don't have any mayor plan (yet) for next year (help!)

So, all of that adds up with the job that I don't like, leaves me freaking out!
To help me feel a little bit better, I bought myself a new small classy netbook! I wanna new fresh start plus I really need one. I love love love my MacBook so much, but since my Macbook has no battery anymore, it's hard for me to move around. Then there's the budget thing, I could not buy another Macbook, so my choice is to buy a battery or a small non-apple netbook. After the pros and cons of everything, I decided to buy a 10 inch non-apple netbook. The reasons are: it is small enough, but not too small, and I love the battery life which is 12 hours (said in the brochure and web). Well, it's not a Macbook, but I'm quite okay with it so far because it's what I needed right now. I know that netbooks are so over right now, maybe this is the last of  it's kind, and people will choose tablets, but this one really suits me! So this is my choice:

It's not an Apple, so it will be a Teddy!

Sawadika Phuket! Traveling with Mum!

Sawadika! Hello! It's been a long time since my last post... So so sorry for that! My blog got a bit dusty in August because I've been traveling around. This post is about my trip to Phuket - Thailand which I took with my Mum. The travel was on late May which is supposedly not ideal to go to Thailand because of the weather, but I bought the tickets last year with checking it first. But anyway, we got lucky because the weather was quite fine so we could go islands hoping.

We spend our first day by island hoping with the destination, Phang Nga, the one famous with the James Bond Island. It was such a unique experiences since I never saw small islands like that before.

We even get the chance to go canoeing in and out of caves around the islands. I was so much fun!

On one of the island, there's a gypsy sea village, where the people lives on floating houses. Mostly the villagers are fisherman and they have lived there all their life.

At night time, we hit the road to try some street food! This one is like a pancake with chocolate and banana. We also tried the-everthing-grilled, then some soup that I forgot the name of it.

The second day, it was sunny! So lucky! So we when to the famous Maya Beach. It's the one famous for Leonardo deCaprio's movie, The Beach. Well, if you think that it would be quiet and relaxing like in the movie, it is so wrong! The beach was so crowded with boats and people. I think it was supposed to be beautiful if it wasn't so crowded.

And there's time for some scuba diving! The fishes was so colorful and beautiful, but once more, too crowded!

After that, we when to an island inhabited by monkeys. I think that the monkeys are already accustom with humans, so the are not afraid if we took pictures. Some people even give them food and cola which I think was not supposed to be done!

On our last night in Phuket, we went to a magical place called "Phuket Fantasea"! I was so wonderful! And what I meant by magical is really true! Me and my mum were like two 5 year old girls, excited to explore everything. The show was so spectacular! It was a combination of ancient and modern circus, dance, theater, and lots more! I was something hard to describe, so I suggest you see it for yourself.

And before the show started, there's a buffet that accommodates 4000 people all at once! 

This is my beloved Mum! She was so excited seeing exotic fruits that we don't have in our country. Just to make the story short, why I took my mum on a trip and make it in my 30B30 list, it's because all her life my mum worked so hard to get me in school and she rarely took time off for herself. Just by seeing her so happy, it's the one thing I ever wanted! And I'm so sure there will be more of trips like this =)

This is what my mum made for us! Duo bikinis! My mum actually made those T-Shirts! She knew my obsession to wear a bikini in the beach which I cannot do (YET!) hahaha... It was so nice of her :D 

I LOVE YOU MUM!

Vegetarian for a month

After Ash Wednesday last February 22nd, I've decided to be a vegetarian for a month. Well, this is some food I managed to eat wihtout meat. Honestly, it hard to get food without any meat in it. So sometimes I have to pick the meat out of the meal. Being a vegetarian for the first time it's not easy (specially if you really live meat and seafood). After the first week, my body feels like un-energized and a little fatique. But I managed to keep on going and not get sick. Actually, I felt more heathly because I ate more vegetables than usual. I'll maybe give it a go some other time. It's so refreshing.

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