Maleficent

The dark, the evil, the twisted, that's what they think of her. But through this Disney version of Maleficent, the evil fairy from the famous story tale Sleeping Beauty has became more of a misunderstood character. Actually, I never give much notice about any valiant, but this version was really good.

Like what it says in the poster, Don't believe the fairy tale. I think that this version remains me of what I thought when I was a kid: I believe that every human being has a good soul and no one is bad or evil. And even if there are people that seemed to be bad or evil, I always thought that there was something or a situation that made people do such bad things. As I get older, that believe is some how fading away, especially after living in the working world where there are just so much injustice and it's hard to notice which is right and wrong and everybody is just being mean to everyone else. Seeing this beautifully written story, makes me try to start understanding this world again. Remembering that behind some 'bad' people, there's a story and a reason why people do things to others.

Angelina Jolie is back! Not really a big fan of her's, but from all of the people in this world, I think that she is perfect for being Maleficent and the movie proofed it too! Angelina is a character that is gracious and cool, that has gone to the wild and dark side has changed to be a loving mother of six. This movie was really meant for her! Actually I love the idea of her having kids from different backgrounds and colors. It's like being open to the whole world.

If you haven't had the chance to see the movie, here's the thriller:

And a beautiful and dark soundtrack from Lana Del Rey:

Somehow, maybe I have a dark side that celebrates this movie so much, and I will absolutely watch again.

The beginning of something new

Resolutions or I'd rather say list of things that will be my focus on 2014 -I'm not finding any solutions but rather just searching for my happiness, are:

•  saving for a specific destination rather than dreaming for an RTW trip which is a bit impossible for me at the moment. I have chosen a certain country that I really really really desperately wanted to go and I will focus to prepare my trip to go there (note: alone). This doesn't mean I'm throwing away the dream, but it's more about trying to make it real in a small measurable portion and I know in my heart it will take me further.
• say NO when I want to say NO. This one is not going to be easy for me. I really need to turn away from the guilty feeling of making other people unhappy
• spend more time blogging! I really need this one. Rather than being a sad sack that cries about the unfairness of this world, I wanted to learn how to write things that interest me the most. I always love to travel because I like to see how people live their life's, so I wanted to captured that and share the passion with everyone else.
• learn and learn and learn so much more in taking better photograph. Travel, photo, and coffee are three of the world's pleasure!
• more doodle-ing. I always make pictures in my mind that I would like to make it into doodles but often it's just gone away. So now I carry a little green doodle book so I can captured moments worth doodling hahaha...

That's all I always think of. Will do better this year!
Hope you have a very fun-tastic year ahead :)

Goodbye 2013

 

2013, started as an hopeful year but turned out so badly that I glad it's over. A series of unfortunate events come and go. Bad things started in the very beginning of this year and left some pretty bad scars. I move back to my hometown just before the new year of 2013 and ended up in a job which I don't like but pretty much was the choice I have at that time. After just about 2 weeks at my new home, on a rainy Sunday afternoon, the ceiling in my bedroom felt down and it made a very bad mess and flood in to my house. The whole house was wet and dirty and we had to stay in our nice neighbor house for a couple of days.

Then just about a month after moving, I became so stressful in my job, I felt like I'm such a failure and the pressure was to hard for me to handle. It was every morning I have the desire to quit my job because I felt there is no point anymore. But after lots and lots of thinking, I really needed the payment (yes I admitted I work there for the money ONLY) because I was saving for my RTW trip. I then made a plan to save for about 2 years than after that I was planning to quit for good. That thought was the only thing that keep me waking up every morning to go to that horrible place and do the things I hated the most.

The very sad thing about 2013 was when I turned 30. Yep... I'm now officially a thirty something girl... it's bad that my twenties had gone, but it means I'm in the beginning of thirty something :) The thing that made me sad was because I didn't finished my 30B30 list :( I really tried to finished it, but "the moving" thing did took so much time, energy, and mind. 

Everything was quite alright and I did got a beautiful scar, it was a tattoo that I made. My first one and I'm so happy with it. Than that very bad accident happened. I still can remembered it so well. I was on the 24th of July -my husband's birthday. He was out of town the day before and was going home that night. I wanted to make a surprise by getting him a birthday cake. And for a reason I couldn't understand, I chose a bakery that was near my old high school. Logically, there was a bakery near my office and it was on the way home and tasted batter, but I don't know why I turn around and went the other way to buy the cake. On the way to the bakery, in a flash of second, without realizing what happened, I felt from my motorcycle. When I knew what happened, I was already sitting on the road and my mouth was bleeding. I stumble over on a road that was under-construction but was not being cleaned properly (and there was no sign). People said that I was the fifth person to fall that day. The scar did heal, but I had broke two of my upper front teeth. It took a month to recovered and I had to use a fake teeth, and from then on, I could not bite no more :( The accident was a split of second but the damage was permanent...

Than things got worst at September. My father got really sick. He went in and out of the hospital about three times in two months and still needs home care. Since September, I had to move back in my parents house because I'm the only child and my parents needs me.

Well, things didn't get any better at my work, but I felt there's no other option now because I needed to earn so much for the medication, so quitting my job was not an option. I'm now in the zone of feeling stuck and was a bit desperate. I bury my dream away, I live a life I don't wanted, and I have to live by other people's expectation. It made me feel so hopeless and no matter how much motivation I read, I still haven't find a way out. I really acted as a victim and it was a bad thing. But at this time of my life I really don't know what and how to get out of this mess.

But hey, it's now 2014... the good thing about new year is we have a second chance. I really hoped I could closed the doors I wanted to closed and opened new ones that needed to be opened. I needed a lot of changes. It's new year now, so it's a new hope! Happy new hope everyone :)

30 it is!

The end of my 30 BEFORE 30 journey! Can't believe that I have made a very long project :) Two years! I haven't accomplished everything on my list, but yet I still feel so very happy because I have write off most of the challenging things. I have made my first tattoo, which mean I can do another one (yay!) and I did take my mum on a mother and daughter holiday :)

Well, the next posts will be the post about what I did that I haven't published yet.

So here comes a new decade for me :) I know it will be great!

The Rhythm of Life

I've come to the last month before my 30th birthday. Since my project started two years ago, I think I've accomplished so much. It's not the many things I've done on my list, because it's not completed yet, but it's about how far I've became. For the past two years, I've became a little bit more crazier, which is a great sign because I can enjoy life a little bit more, but most important is that I started to know more about myself. It's really a great thing if you know about yourself, not from what people think or say about you, but it's more about what you feel about yourself. This life is a long journey, and the more I know about myself, the more I know the rhythm that my heart and body can follow. I've considered that I'm a slow rhythm kind of person. I love to stop and enjoy the moment and I'm not comfortable in any rush of things. The more people push me to rush things, the more likely I would fall down and usually hurt myself (and my heart).

Thinking of that, I kinda wonder why people nowadays like to rush things? I know it's a demand to earn a living you have to be the fastest, the most improved person, the one that makes the big numbers, and so on... but after you got those numbers, or being the fastest, other people will do more and more and it's an never ending. And it's okay to have done that once in your life, we have to experience things to know how it really is, but considering doing that kinda thing for decades? That's about the scariest thing I could think of. Yet lots of people are doing that. I would like to share a short story from Paulo Coelho's book "Like the flowing river":

The Funny Thing About Human Beings

A man asked my friend Jamie Cohen: 'What is the human being's funniest characteristics?' Cohen said: 'Our contradictoriness. We are in such a hurry to grow up, and then we long for our lost childhood. We make ourselves ill earning money, and then spend all our money on getting well again. We think so much about our future that we neglect the present, and thus experience neither the present nor the future. We live as if we were going to die, and die as if we had never lived.

Unused Photos

Have you ever unintentionally made some photos from your smartphone because you forget to close the app or just pressed the wrong button? I've did that many times, mostly between photos I wanted to made. I thought it would be nice to use those unused photo for a little art project. I use my favorite app, Line Camera, did some cropping and color editing, and just stamp a long to make a story!

Cuddly cat out in the sun

Ballerina's dream

Unicorn tend 

Hanging by a treat

A love letter for the cat

5 books that changed your life?

By the spirit of Paulo Coelho's question about what 5 books that changed my life, I kinda need a few seconds to think of it. I looked at the list of 50 books that changed the world (another Paulo's post), and got to realized that in my entire life I've only read two of them (technically one and a half because I haven't read the whole bible). So this is my list of books that changed my life in order from the latest:

1. Veronika decides to die by Paulo Coelho
   
   This is actually the second book of Paulo that I read. It's a book about craziness. I mean it really opened my mind, where in this world where "normal" is devined by a group of people that have power after other people, it leads for the free-hearted people to be traped and left so empty. Some people even are more afraid of being out there in the "normal people world" and being in an institution house. The story gives the feeling that we are not alone in this world (for the free-hearted people) and normal is just an idea.
   
2. The Shack by by William P. Young
   
   The Shack actually was the book that came in the right time and place. I was at the point in my life where I felt like I don't have a life and I don't know what I will do with my life and soon on when one night, after work, me and my friend went to the bookstore where we rarely do because in the town where I work, only have to very small bookstore and it's better to go to a bookstore in the city, when I found this book. On the back cover, as I remembered says it's the book for people who needs direction in life, so I bought it for no reason. Out of the boredom, I read the book and I even cried in the end. It took only one night to read the whole thing. And that's when I started to discover things that I wanted to do in life, including starting my 30Before30 list.
   
3. The secret life of bees by Sue Monk Kidd
   
   This my my favorite book turned into a movie. I loved it so much and it is one of those books that can made me so emotional. The book is more as encouragement for young ladys to be strong going through this life. It really suits me through he hardship I went through in my twenties.
   
4. The great Gilly Hopkins by Katherine Paterson
   
   My favorite book growing up! I think I read it mor than 20 times!!!!! I didn't even owned the book. I read it in the library all through my high school days. Yep, I rarely made friends that time. I enjoyed my days in the library, reading books I loved. This book is a alone life type book, but I just love the darkness of the story.
   
5. The Secret Garden is a novel by Frances Hodgson Burnett
   
   I first read it in elementary and instantly felt in love with the story. I think I kinda felt related a bit because I'm the only child and some thing like that. I love the adventure in the book and how in the end the little girl made it a happy garden. I grow up dreaming of it. The big house, a big bed that have a window of the garden, and of course, having to nurture a secret garden of my own. And that's the basic thing that still lives in my fantasy.

Anyway, sometimes you just read for fun, but sometimes, the books can teach you life lesson in the meaning that it gives you a guide to think more about your life. Well, those are the 5 books that changed my life. What's yours? And why?